used a netty pot
thinking “meow meow” in the same tone over & over
should probably eat vegan to make up for the beer i drink
played a video on my phone in the library while sitting alone with the sound on loud (oops), person in video screams “JACKING OFF”
i used…
In bed, trying to think of what to put in my body to numb this SENSE OF IMPERMANENCE.
Sang “bitches luv buttons mayn / bitches luv buttons mayn” repeatedly into my fridge.
Looked at shoes and thought “Bored at this goddamn shit.”
If I shoot myself, I want to make sure my blood/brain sprays on everyone’s internet opinions re literature (seems dramatic).
Overheard someone say, “The black guy vomiting in the corner.”
Like how I took one cookie and walked to my bedroom like I’m not gonna eat all the damn cookies.
“I’m real tired / but real as shit / so I sleep / with my eyes open and shit” is a shitty rap lyric.
Seems everyone at this poetry reading is either “Hi Tim” or “How did this nigger find out about this alternative poetry reading?”
Last night I drank a lot of vodka & ate Wendy’s in my car & went to a “dark place” where life seemed meaningless (lol).
“Of course I’m attracted to her” is the new “Of course she has ‘Nathan’ tattooed on her neck and hand.”
